Poem-A-Day; BlogTramp Love Ethics in Alleyways and Corridors

Love Went Away

It’s hard to think about it now; I gave so much just to furl in sorrows’ shroud

And now I stand, so far behind, asking myself, “How could I have been so blind?”

I gave my soul and so much more but I lost the games

Too much trust and self doubt were to blame

I tried so hard to make things right

Over and over, every day I had to fight

I close my eyes as I try to disappear

All the while I have been so damned sincere

I turned around and love went away

To be alone, stranded outside of the room we once waltzed into

In some other frame of mind

I’d rush right home, only for her

But is that true, or did it just make me lonelier?

Chorus / stop the tears…

And as I fell into lost hope, within cold streets, shattered dreams knocked me down

Addressed myself in disarray. I now know that I was not sane. I was not sane!

Jacqueline

I’d tell her how I feel right now, if I knew exactly how, without sounding this confused

I’d tell her what she needs to know, if I could let my feelings show

It’s her that I’m afraid to lose

Jacqueline

For now I’ll hesitate to write, letters to her every night, fearing that I’ll complicate things

I’ll call her name out everywhere, accept that she can’t hear me there

Believing that she’ll reappear

Jacqueline – I need her here with me

Someday when it’s all made right, I’ll begin to hold her tight

And ask her if she will forgive me

Need to have her by my side, need to hear her happy voice,

Need to be the one she marries

Jacqueline - repeat

Illusions     

Am I projecting your illusion as you smile and saunter by?

Am I self-subjecting to a second-hand smoke, clouding up my eyes?

I am nervous. I’m delighted and surprised when you appear

I’m tied in knots and clumsy, then, caught fumbling in fear

For when you look in my direction I feel butterflies

Fooling, for a moments’ millionth, as you smile, my own vacillating mind

I simply can’t remember when I’ve felt this way before

Even if this image is just only what I burn for

When all the while, all those looks, were looks and nothing more

And for the past few tears, I’ve sighed, from time to time to time

This reoccurring dream of you, have I merely dreamt it

For to cherish and adore?

I’m Still Holding this Rose

I’m holding this Rose, when everything is silent

The entire garden is withered

And outside is a blizzard

Standin’ outside, forgetting where the time went

And the flowers that they all sent

In my dreams, I kiss her,

Thought of lost memories, terrifying

As I roam off into the sunset

Pray; whenever I rise, to meet again

I’m still holding my Rose

I’m holding my Rose out on your veranda

The Garden is empty

Dead leaves all around me

The curtain’s still slightly open

Close my eyes and hear her sing accapella

My heart melts while I’m frozen

Suspended in a moment

I dance with her spirit

While I’m holding this Rose

I’m holding my Rose

I’m holding my Rose

I’m holding my Rose as I’m sinking down in wet sands

I’m reaching up with both hands

Crying out across Lake Ontario

Empty echoes of the moon glow

The waves rush, my tears flow

When I close my eyes,

I’m holding my Rose         

Climb mountains to reach her

Burn bridges to see her

Cross oceans to find her

Fly to the Heavens to hold her

When I stop falling, I’ll be holding my Rose

Whenever I rise, I’ll be holding my Rose

Rose